Me Videos

Hmm... guess it's my only real outlet to the Internet world.. Videos and since people want that sort of instant gratification I guess it's the best way to go. The funny thing is I've got 75 friends on Myspace and those are mostly the people I know personally, where as I have only 36 subcribers on youtube, lol. No matter google picks it up and I hope I'm a least slightly more enertaining then the average seamstress. The big problem with it is that production takes so long, it takes me at least a day to produce even the simplest 4 min video, and I just can't cheat myself on lessen my quality anymore than I already do. I shoot my vids with my digital camera, and I totally cheat on lighting one maybe two, then I just change the setting in the editing on lightness and contrast, but I'm learning too. First I'm making videos to learn editing I know high production video shooting whitebalance lighting, and what angles and shots to shoot at and if I didn't Mark would hound me. Second I have my own style detached from Mark and his work, Video is serious business in our family so I would like to do better but it just doesn't seem worth it, high quality means I should be getting paid, playing around is what gives me a sense of where or in what direction to improve. One thing I've noticed with Vlogs is that there is very little point to viewing them at all when it is almost always the persons face, a few facial expressions hardly help to tell the story any better, people with hands that fly around have higher ratings and it's no wonder when there's very little action else where. So I've been doing a series on graphic design there are just tons of graphic design program videos out there and people always want to know how to do the tricks but have no foundation as to how to present them properly, so In my videos I talk basics I covered Marketing, Raster and Vector formats resoulution, and Logos Next I want to cover, Typography, white space compestion contrast and that's about it, I thought there would be a larger market for it because the rest has been done, and my videos directly coralate to all 2d art inculding video but because I don't put it in the title people seem to be lost as to how to use my info effectivly. The series will still help me when it comes to dealing with customers and trying to explain my purposes in how I create my art and why, instead of seeming demading trying to explain the art and why they shouldn't change certian parts of the work. I would have gone on to teach some corel but it's really not worth it without a demand from anyone that would use it. So I'll get that series out there and be finshed with it. Sewing seems to be the meat and potatos of it all. While I have created a character that really attracts the right scene this 50's house wife I'll have to move her from just bashing Mark's greenscreens to teaching useful knowlege about sewing while it's not entirely unuseful to use only blue and green fabrics I'm not sure I want to do that the whole time, the charater is able to be quite mouthy and sarcastic too, and I like that angry house wife deal, 50's attracts artys people with the rockabilly DIY style and I get to have a feminie quality while bashing the oppsite sex, I do get a little enjoyment out of bashing Mark, lol, trust me he deserves it. Then there's two other angles I've thought about first is the spiritual I did one on beauty a while back and it was really well recived then I've thought about doing more with the kids there's so many kids watching youtube having them do art or something would eventually get attention but mark doesn't really want the girls on the Internet, yes he's overprotective and the older one is wareing makeup now so maybe it's not for the best. Still the spiritual thing I wish I could just come out and say how I feel about things, that I'm not racist I don't disrespect other peoples religions or cultures that god is love and I don't understand why people love to hate other people or hurt other people, but just saying it isn't enough, to understand things people need to live them or see themselves question themselves living the stories what have you done what would you do how would you feel, so I need to write good stories or illustrate situations, the first one I did was a real dream I had so that was easy, much of my personal world I can't share with the public some is even aganist youtube policy so making up stories takes time.

Insanity

I don't get it I just don't. I learned how to navigate you tube myspace and so many other internet interactivity. Now I have to figure out blogs RSS other blogs link them or something talk to them or something and get my name out there, I just don't want to, I'm trying and I don't get it. I don't have a life time to devote to internet socializations. And I can't figure out why I'd bother when even on blogs it would seem people don't wish to read at all, short discriptions just to attract people is what they say to write. I don't care I really don't I'm gonna do my own thing, I was taught how to write and I'm told I'm a good story teller so even if no one reads this cause our generation seems to want instant gradifacation I don't care. I was taught to sew well and now it's popular to sew like a child with no reinforcement weak quaility some how translates into high creativity, bright pictures some how means more or better information, maybe some of the time in some ways and maybe I'm just to old to compeate in a DIY world. Creativity is great but what ever happened to quality. I don't seem to be able to dumb myself down and I don't want to make things that will fall apart if used, I love the art of sewing and crafts because it has a useful puropse, I hope this is just a trend. It's comparable to talking to those people who don't understand graphic design and want you to change your designs into something that they themselves would create in a word document. Does experience and knowlege count for anything. Hmm... Help!

More Beginings

I'm doing it, it's been a while but I got it up and started so it's a nice little side business. About two weeks ago I posted some stuff up on etsy under the seller name Junoart and while I haven't got much going yet on that site. I have alot more stock which today thanks to my friends as she said was being a bitch to get me to sell at this store she's doing some stuff for. But I'm glad I have a bitch for a best friend, I get so discouraged at times trying and trying to figure it out what I have to do.

Between making stuff and marketing stuff and Networking sites and researching products and then having a life a family and the 9 to 5 job stuff it all gets to be too much, and if things don't sell all the praise in the world doesn't make me feel good. Soon enough I'll see how it goes I think I spread myself too thin. My father always told me not to be an artist, what an insane passion it is.
In this new market and with the market being what it is nothing right now it's alot of work just getting it all together. Packaging is half the battle, people really do believe you have a better product if your packing is professional. Even beyond that marketing if you don't do it for yourself it won't happen, first you work with your own community and I think that's where the real support comes in those close to you will respect you and your work the most, but for todays market we know it's that big big world the Internet. There's thousands of us out there, into our own things do what we do screaming out to world on our digital platform in a sea where so many have already made a mark, how does one even get seen?

So I'm told for the arts and crafts market bloging is the mark it's the craft market so here I am, but is it enough, no not by any means. No one not one no how just becomes big all on their own just by making a blog writing some stories doing some videos, their's alway a hook a catch that gets people reading wins people hearts over and more. I've watched what it took to get mark big and it's practically selling your soul to see how many hours each endeavor takes it's the social interactivity promotions and being seen featured commenting and RSS or Subscribing or Friending people all over, it's a 24-7 obsession to keep up with once the ball is started it'll roll on it's own, but you need to play the game to win it, do I have what it takes I don't know. I just do what I love and if people get then great if not well I'll find another way.

Sew Crazy

Wow, wow, wow, just on a whim I replied to this ad from a huge tv station. Then I got a call back, they want me to be on a reality tv show for fashion design. I know I'm brilliant at designing I see some fabric some new styles and I imagine in my mind what it should be, it's like second nature to me. But I can't say this is the right path for me.

Self sacrifice again I must keep in mind my family, they need me and for me to follow my desires blindly and without pay means that I could make things very hard for them. I'm glad that my husband says he would do it for me, if I wanted to do it.

I have learned other things though from this, I know that most of the talentless people of you tube would love nothing more than being on a real TV show, some of those that believe they already are big have gone about getting talent agents, lol! And little old me with no following 35 little subscribers I got offered a real show because of my real talent. Ah but god's humor is more Ironic than even that, I'm hiding a secret, ok I'm hiding tons of secrets but this one is relevant, I have terrible stage fright, I'm camera shy. I thought I'd mostly gotten over it I'm a least able to talk on video that is going on the Internet, even if I shake and look up tight when doing so. But what I learned what I really learned is this the internet and all it's many free vices can be used to propel a career, they will not always be seen as frivolous play even you tube with it's reputation for stupidity, is something that can be used in the right format can be a showcase for talent. Now that I know there is one way in one way that I can succeed and find great opportunities there are other ways too I know there are just using my talents and exposing them to the right people is enough, it doesn't have to be exposing them to everyone.

So now that I've achieved what youtube stars have been trying for for years, I'm bored with it. I've also learned a few other things I've been practicing at editing and watching others (which is very boring) and I've learned that the vlog thing is just like listening to a talk show on the radio, few of these people use visual images in their videos and that is very boring, so I have no need to show my face anymore, one pic of my face when talking is enough, visual presentation has a purpose to illustrate the speakers words otherwise it's useless or only for the purpose of feeling personal by seeing the person I guess. I've also made money off my editing lately so I again feel as if I've achieved a great amount of knowledge and
while I need to do more work more practice I feel so far above those whom never advance with their skills in video and rely on their names sake for talent, I've gotten quite far.

Now You tube is not the only website worth posting on Myspace if your public and blogs like this one are great for self promotion. And here I am anilizing who and what I am and what I'm doing, that's such a bad way to go, I should just speak of my love of arts and crafts and not my many other intrests, lol.
As Alice in wonderland once said, " I often give myself very good advice but I very rarely follow it" That's me!