learning

La di da, So I'm learning this video thingy and I'm finding I just don't like the way that the average videos are made there is a standard on youtube and most online videos keep it short, speed though the making process and shoot like an untrained home video, ahhhrr, no can do. I get that people have short attention spans and are unable to keep interest unless the camera is zooming in and out and all over but it's so primitive, I was trained to shoot professionally and the home movie became obsolete. In all honesty I'm not really concerned with whether or not anyone cares to watch it's really pretty cool that I have an online journal of how to do or what I've done, I can refer back to it to teach my friends and hopefully even my children even if they have learned, everyone needs a reference manual once in a while. To be honest I feel like just giving up on crafts all together with the needs of my family the children's homework and everything else just feels too over whelming for me at times but I'm still on the fence for now. I've tried making these little teaching videos more interesting well I think wearing my poka-dot dress really helps lighten the mood and smiling really fakely (but I suck at acting so I'm bad at keeping that up). I tried telling some of the stories of how and from who I learned. I guess this is a real little treasure to pass on to those I love, a compilation of my teachings, but the videos themselves are so time consuming to make and put together and I'm always pushing myself to make it better top of the line, visible easy to learn off of detailing the simple things, I've lost all interest in impressing people for views or subscribers. I'm not sure how to make them better I've practiced putting together simple intros on Vegas with photoshop and flash and premiere pro not all of which I've posted but I guess I'm learning I've also practiced changing the shape and size picture in picture, 3d movement, that 3rds title thing playing with music speed and cutaways, all of this is very good since my secondary interest in video is to learn it and learn it well it profits me in two ways, first my being a graphic designer this adds a bit more to my resume skills and knowledge, and my lovers business I would like at some point to be good enough to edit for him or even myself for business endeavors video tutorials weddings ect. . Some of the stuff we've done together I've just run though much of the stuff I've done for youtube I've run though not so interested in the best editing given that it's taken me days at a time to do even the shortest of these videos, I get fed up and with out proper motivation (money) uninterested in doing my best, just getting it out there really. I have learned the basics and I think next I'll incorporate that little side logo thing for fun I have two more videos of footage and then I don't know maybe I'll just lose all interest. The first is 1explaining fabrics then there's 2 quilting a pillow, I haven't taught 3what or where to buy a sewing machine 4how to thread it, 5 tension 6how to practice some simple starter patterns 7 how to read commercial patterns 8sizing 9grading 10curves 11 how to make your own patterns 12how to copy from clothes 13 beading, 14fashion styles, 15macrame 16croqueting 17knitting 18special embellishments 19added touches, my god I know too much and this doesn't even begin to teach my art knowledge but I have to wait to teach that cause someone is trying to make money off his knowledge and I won't come in between that. Then I would like to share my thoughts on god 20 another endeavor I can add to my teachings that someday may help my children with their lives, however I know I'm not the usually with my belief systems and therefore may offend some interest others but more importantly I would be saying what I think to be true although what I think to be true is not true to everyone the concept of god which I see in a very physical apparition of our every day choices and actions it is simply to complex and abstract a notion to introduce to anyone but maybe I'll try with an very artsy appeal to the video.