Keeping up with my current crafts

Ok so I rant and rant about the complexity of videos and how I simply don't have the time to keep up with all that I do. Truth is I feel very useless if I'm not creating something or learning something, the sewing and crafts are meditative expressive and therapeutic to me I use them to sort out my thoughts and feelings I go into a zone when I'm doing them I use my skills those things I've learned and figured out my past experiences and creativity. Lately I have made, I mean since December I have finished at least the top of my table which I started after thanksgiving did a vid on it and described a few of my thought processes on it, what I left out cause it's a video is my ideas on useful art being that my parents are fine artist I found art that sat in a museum or on a wall and made such a meager living monintaryly well I found fine art infuriating not that I don't love it do it and feel moved by it, I simply like useful things touchable things. I'm told that in Native American languages prior to Europeans there were no words for art there was of course art in every ordinary item in a house hold but they didn't see it as a separate entity, amazing inspiring such a concept challenges all that I've ever learned. So I find more purpose in decorating the usual average items of a home. I also excluded my interests in may different styles of art the table includes some art deco, some art nuvo, and that fun touch of the piano key that seem playful enough to want to touch and pretend to play on.

So that's the Table, I also had some costumes to make My older daughter came to me with a week to make a character from a book for a reading class party at school of course it took me to the end of the week to take any intrest in doing so, but I succeeded at first she only wanted to be a powerpuff girl, but walmart (yes I shop there) didn't have the right fabric then we considered tinkerbell which I can't say I liked due to the short skirt and strapless dress and the complexty of the costume, Finally Dorthy from the Wizard of OZ simple cheap and strait cuts, I made this costume in about 2 hours including sizing so if I do a how to costume video this is what I'll make it was fun she looked great and easy enough to change into with her uniform at school


I also never posted that adorable goth cheerleader costume that I had made her for Halloween last year so this is it:


And I've been working on yet another costume for Mark this time, he always complains that I never do anything for him or sew him anything that is. So I'm not supposed to announce it or anything but I'm making him a superhero costume copyright free of course and we're working out the scripts and character it's a new deal sort of thing. I was trying it on him for size the other day before I added the yoke and it looked just like a evening gown on him, he was not so happy with it but it was hilarious especially with his chest hair, very dashing, he'd make a great drag queen I must say, I already have some ideas about how stupid and aimless dressing and acting like an idiot cartoon is at our mature age but if he wishes to behave that way I've never stopped anyone from falling in their own self made wholes. He still hasn't finished editing the video of the cave man costume I made him last year.

So that just about covers the whole sewing stuff I've been doing I should write more often cause I also have been practicing knitting my brother wants the tom baker dr. who scarf that was red too, it may take a few years I had someone else make him the brown one a few years ago but if I keep going at this rate he may have the red one by the time his daughter graduates college 10years or so, lol, I'm slow at knitting. I've been wanting to finish up a greenscreen quilt and make some more plastic bag holders and market some on etsy too, of which I've sold nothing off of as of yet and make a video explaining them too, we'll see. and then I wanted to make some more ugly dolls and do the same promotion video and sell on etsy etc.. So some other things I have done is make a banner for etsy and some backgrounds for Mark's upcoming quiz video and some of this and that oh I made a Website too and well I don't know what else I do and do and do and days just fade away children get older and responsibilitys get greater some days I can't remeber and I never know where I'm going or where I've been I just live and know what I'm doing now, what a taoist way to feel : )

learning

La di da, So I'm learning this video thingy and I'm finding I just don't like the way that the average videos are made there is a standard on youtube and most online videos keep it short, speed though the making process and shoot like an untrained home video, ahhhrr, no can do. I get that people have short attention spans and are unable to keep interest unless the camera is zooming in and out and all over but it's so primitive, I was trained to shoot professionally and the home movie became obsolete. In all honesty I'm not really concerned with whether or not anyone cares to watch it's really pretty cool that I have an online journal of how to do or what I've done, I can refer back to it to teach my friends and hopefully even my children even if they have learned, everyone needs a reference manual once in a while. To be honest I feel like just giving up on crafts all together with the needs of my family the children's homework and everything else just feels too over whelming for me at times but I'm still on the fence for now. I've tried making these little teaching videos more interesting well I think wearing my poka-dot dress really helps lighten the mood and smiling really fakely (but I suck at acting so I'm bad at keeping that up). I tried telling some of the stories of how and from who I learned. I guess this is a real little treasure to pass on to those I love, a compilation of my teachings, but the videos themselves are so time consuming to make and put together and I'm always pushing myself to make it better top of the line, visible easy to learn off of detailing the simple things, I've lost all interest in impressing people for views or subscribers. I'm not sure how to make them better I've practiced putting together simple intros on Vegas with photoshop and flash and premiere pro not all of which I've posted but I guess I'm learning I've also practiced changing the shape and size picture in picture, 3d movement, that 3rds title thing playing with music speed and cutaways, all of this is very good since my secondary interest in video is to learn it and learn it well it profits me in two ways, first my being a graphic designer this adds a bit more to my resume skills and knowledge, and my lovers business I would like at some point to be good enough to edit for him or even myself for business endeavors video tutorials weddings ect. . Some of the stuff we've done together I've just run though much of the stuff I've done for youtube I've run though not so interested in the best editing given that it's taken me days at a time to do even the shortest of these videos, I get fed up and with out proper motivation (money) uninterested in doing my best, just getting it out there really. I have learned the basics and I think next I'll incorporate that little side logo thing for fun I have two more videos of footage and then I don't know maybe I'll just lose all interest. The first is 1explaining fabrics then there's 2 quilting a pillow, I haven't taught 3what or where to buy a sewing machine 4how to thread it, 5 tension 6how to practice some simple starter patterns 7 how to read commercial patterns 8sizing 9grading 10curves 11 how to make your own patterns 12how to copy from clothes 13 beading, 14fashion styles, 15macrame 16croqueting 17knitting 18special embellishments 19added touches, my god I know too much and this doesn't even begin to teach my art knowledge but I have to wait to teach that cause someone is trying to make money off his knowledge and I won't come in between that. Then I would like to share my thoughts on god 20 another endeavor I can add to my teachings that someday may help my children with their lives, however I know I'm not the usually with my belief systems and therefore may offend some interest others but more importantly I would be saying what I think to be true although what I think to be true is not true to everyone the concept of god which I see in a very physical apparition of our every day choices and actions it is simply to complex and abstract a notion to introduce to anyone but maybe I'll try with an very artsy appeal to the video.